Just and all me

When I love someone it's just one and I love with all my heart. I have found that someone yet I wonder to myself does he feel the same way I do.

Sometimes I imagine me attending his wedding. His perfect bride looking ever so beautiful nothing compared to me. The tall tanned punjabi girl from Singapore. It saddens me for I know well what the future holds. It restricts me and my desires. It forbids me of my love. Yes I am madly deeply n most definitely truly in love with him no other can sweep me off my feet or hold my heart in a pleasant delightful captive as he holds mine. But I know what the future holds. I see it molding into effect. My presence my need my love has seem too suffocating for him. I would never want him to ever feel compressed in anyway. Burden responsibility dignity is what few things I never want to impose on him. I'm the girl who will always smile even when there's no stars or sunshine in the day. I will be that sparkling star and I am that bright sunshine, for I know the one I love will love me right back as equal as an equilibrium. Life is like a sand glass once all the sand is down it's up to you to reverse it and experience moments Better than before. Always me pinky

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sometimes i wonder am i important enough. cos i dont feel it. i mean honestly. im not expecting much not do i have expectation but from how i see it, im not important enuff. patriotism, nationalism and god knows what more. my heart is the purest of all.

im pinky remember the girl who will always smile. who was born smiling.

anyways sharing a few videos i love much =))

Secret

imissyouyeahimissyou

2010

nepal with love

phuket - holiday inn

langkawi

nepal

india 2009 with sandip

A year to remember 2010. Phuket Nepal Langkawi :) Im happy maybe japan later on who knows :P

More than anything i miss baby, i know deep down he knows, its hard for me, harder i think, simmys weddings up in oct, just the ROM. So its ok. getting the dress ready now. its with the tailors already.

Starting the bank on 3rd august, wish me luck :)

tc

love

yes

im back to make an appearance. Im gonna tender my resgntn soonest, its been a gd 2 1/2 yrs at CPCA. Im so happy it was my foundation to the hospitality line, given all that i have learnt and experience. Im ready enough to earn big money now and be with baby full time. Just need him more now then ever. Simmys weddings soon 10/10/10.

:)

lifes good, remain positive and happy. im all glowing!!!!!

...its been awhile

Guess it has been this long, im not used to pen down much, though i have a diary for him. lets say the memory space in my head is failing and i need a back up. its hard to be in my shoes, restrospectively speaking. i got to take bullshits thrown at me from north south east west. blogging has been a comforting way in a way for me, i dont need anyone to read it. i cld password enable it too. i just need to depend on an external storage rather relying on my poor memory.

if the brainiest mind mapper could map me out it would look like an intricate piece of artwork. stretching from personal to professional. closest to furthest. i need a huge hand to crane me out from where i am you know like how those crane moves boulders of cements to form a building, yeap pick me up like that and auto control me to where i would prefer to be the drop off point. at the moment, the BEST pace i can think of is china we all know why. or the top of the Eiffel tower. so i can scream my lungs out, as much as my lungs can capacitate.

Im probably intenetionally leading myself to starvation, one meal a day and all i had to day was cereal, i couldnt lie to sandip even if i wanted too. told him i ate cereal he said thats good, felt guilty so i went to kistchen and poured me milk and cereal for a brunch. then slept through lunch awake now to head to work but dinner doesnt come to mind. i think thats the only best thing about working night, you forget alot of things, people in your life, you lose track of the days and the dates, you work the owl shift get home fall flat to sleep and awake at 6 or 7pm so meaning to say one sleeps through breakfast and lunch. dinner is subjective, i dont why my body doesnt need food and maybe i dont hear my head well enough too, i dont know, but i drink yes, my fluids, i take water, chilled green tea occasional coffee and tea.

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Aloha...

i know i have been forgetting my blog's existence. But honestly, work and life is really busy.

Work is good! awesome infact, geting compliments and well incentives and recogintion too.

life is fantastic even without Sandip here, its been a lot busy... finding a new home... getting ready for Di's wedding this october... picking outfits for him and me. and well id still love to end the day with sandip by my side and a warm cup of coffee.

Im pretty keen on the double degree Singapore Institute of Management is offering in Economic managment and Psycology. But its a whopping 77K. Fooo Yooo. :P

Maybe i will just take my bachelors in Nepal. Just maybe.

Sf and me are super zealous for the upcoming vacation hopefully to US! Wheeee..... fingers crossed.


Love
phk

India & Nepal

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India was WOW. I didnt much like it. But i Love Amritsar!!!!

Nepal is as amazing as always.

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Love from a distant
phk