its easy to tell some one its over, or hey lets take a break. but what does that really mean?

i understand the break. but it really ios not easy to patch up again.

things surely must change.

they are suppose to right.

so to ensure lasting love and understanding, you must be willing to change if you want me to have you back in my life, for me you never left.

Perhaps i did in your life.

Things run throught my head. you got tired of sleeping around? so you r done with this break or you missed me genuienely . i really dont know.

you must make the effort. you have to, cause i know im worth it. maybe what all those random strangers say is the truth, i deserve better than you. i dont know.

shed that ego, that idiocracy malehood possesive jealousy skin. layer on the love and sensitivity. i beg you. for i will only allow my heart to be crumpled once, never broken, never misled. things have to be different, our outlook. our future, our plans. you left me for 3months even more.

the ball is in your court now.

life as of 27 june 2011

life is not turning out too well.

im doing most nights now, its not being good on my body.

im puking blood, i hope its not avms in tummy. but i dont mind if it is either.

atleast i know HHT is alive and around waiting to happen next. like whats gonna happen next.

i dont expect pity or sadness from ppl. im an attention lover in most ways but not a forced kind.

this is my life and im leaving it, and also responsible to it. i dont need a back bone or any support from ppl. because i know whats it like to love some one who doesnt love you back and all you have is your flaws in hand.

i got you HHT for life and you got me.....just dont surprise me too much


gd night world.

...for now

~25~

im 25 in another 20mins, nothing has really changed.

what i have learnt is the more you love the more it will hurt.

so here i am, i have an establishing career with Pan Pacific Suites. Hope It goes well.

i dont have much wishes on my end, however i do have a list i wish to accomplish.

1.driving llicense

2.bachelors

3.get engaged(slightly impossible)

4.excel at work

5.save more

6travel further

7.pray often

8.exercise regularly

9.smile every day

10.maintain a good healthy relation with all who knows me and whom i know

~

guess thats it.

oh and love more too

:)

2011

Im gonna get there eventually.

I know i will achieve it.

I know i have what it takes.

confidence and positiveness is what i exuberate.

im talented, well multi-talented if u can say :)

and i have a good strong support from my love near and far.

thats the man i cherish. love is subtle. us is more passionate and practical. we have short term goals and long term goals which we are together reaching.

i dont know why

but my tears are easy these days

i dont feel loved.

i realised i always give my all, 100%. be it work or personal.

i shower baby, thats how i am, i love him i do with all my heart. my beating heart.

i love mummy too, i think i deserve to be loved too, alot infact.

the med student and the sick gal has gotten me thinking alot.

the doctor and the hht gal. he used to call me that before, teases i know. but i know deep down. i know it better than anyone.

all i can do is smile right thats the purpose of my birth, im a smilling pinky.

2011

oh yes and it s a new year, happy 2011. america shud happen this year!

2011

oh yes and it s a new year, happy 2011. america shud happen this year!