Can't take it anymore

Call me weak jealous sensitive but I can't help it. I always thought you would be my escape! Save me from here save me from me in a way. But this has been dragging to long don't you think. I'm suppose to be a mother now. I'm suppose to be really truly love by my significant other. I'm 25, 26 in a months time. I have a career ladder to climb, a degree to achieve, driving license to accomplish yet no love to fight for nor courage to endure criticism. All I have is my disease and my tube, my heart, my procrastinating brain with abscess, lungs with avms and luckily some faith in my belief of Guruji. You see, I'm a Sikh after all ...I'm a woman too in need of love more than sex. Wanting to be married to you. But I guess it's not all the time that your first becomes your last. Sadly I've really loved you SA. Guess I'm not the one.... I hope we find ours. I wished I was yours.


Phk
Apparently no ones

I'm a Woman too

I have simple desires too
I yearn to be a part of you
I want to nurture a part of me too
I rarely expect
I wait and ponder instead

I want a life
I don't ask of it to be easy
I know together we can make it
I want you to love me too

I want to be missed
I want a chance
I want that love
I don't want to envy people
I want to write my own story, chapter by chapter

I crave for such comfort
I am simply a woman, with good ethics, with a good heart
I do not wish harm onto others

I deserve my happiness
I have earned it....
I hope you can see it

how does it work?

How does someone become of importance. Its contradicting I would assume that an incident whether it has occurred or yet too, can infact deter the mindset of a certain individual. Or perhaps they lack the sense of sensitivity itself. Egoistic, gloomy or any such personality traits. Interesting indivicuals i shall presume. An event could have would have or could have develop drastic changes, and some people, rather smart of them, have used circumstances to their favor.

I would say I had mt chance, I believe in different things and it may take me abit longer to achieve my goals. but I will get there.

WJKK WJKF